JJ

IN MY LIFE IVE BEEN HAMMERED BY SOME HEAVY FLOWS THAT NEVER KNOCKED ME OFF MY FEET :') i found this particular sentence in one of Taylor's Swift's songs and it struck me deeply . All my life ive encountered so much problems that i mostly keep to myself . those problems were not just typical hormonal teenage problems , mind you . they were huge , really huge . they were a big deal and such a burden to me . most of all , they affected me . both mentally and physically , i was almost like a psychopath at the end of it . drowned in my own tears , somehow metaphorically unable to reach the surface . i felt dead and all hopes seem lost , but one day i woke up and i told myself . THESE THINGS ARE NEVER WORTH THE LIFE IVE SPENT 16 YEARS BUILDING , IVE SUFFERED ENOUGH AND NOW I JUST WANT TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE . i never knew words could lift me up so strongly but for goodness sake with Gods will it did . i stood up and things have never felt the same as before . ive been stronger ever since , i dont want to sound all corny or anything because i do believe that there are more people who have been through worse than i did , but seriously ive been through such a phase and i didnt lose myself . i won against all the burdens that wanted to knock me off the ground , i won and everyone else could too . you just have to believe in your willingness to be able to do it , that was what my father told me :D those HEAVY BLOWS seem to fail to knock me off the ground and trust me they will keep on failing .